Then You Cracked A Smile

Dear A,

Isn't it funny how simple things can just stick like glue in your head for quite some time? Like the way you wore your white t-shirt and blue jeans that night, or the way you waved your hand in hesitation the second time we met. 

I can still remember the look on your face, a deep heavy voice, a few gray strands here and there, and those curious, confused slanted eyes. 

Then you cracked a smile.

And I chuckled.

Affair of The Heart

When married people having an affair, they show these little traits: they talk on the phone for hours and can't wipe that stupid smile off their face while they stare at computer screen, dark spot on the wall, or their toe caps. You know that he/she is having an affair because married people lost their sparks past their honeymoon phase. 

Well I'm not married nor in a serious relationship right now, I'm just a pessimist when it comes to marriage or monogamous relationship. I was in a long distance relationship once and I gave that up. I had this trust issue and couldn't cope with that. So I decided to give up what I once thought a true love. 

The funny thing is, I always considered my self as the faithful type until a friend of mine told me the opposite. 

"Hey, do you think I'm a faithful lover?" I rambled one night just before we fell asleep. "No, you're absolutely not," she laughed when I gaped aghast. 

"B-but... I've never cheated," I said defensively, trying in vain to save my dignity. "Yeah, there are many forms of infidelity. If it's not physical, then it's emotional. I don't know which category you fall into," she continued. In general, infidelity is a violation of trust. And there is no point in keeping the damaged one.

"So, why are we talking about this matter anyway?" you ask. 

Well, because, I was passing in front of this guy's office and I saw him blushing when he spoke on the phone with such soft voice. So I thought, okay, he must be talking to his mistress. >:)

Dear Elmo

Why don't we go and have lunch together just like the old times? And then maybe you and I can go for a drink tonight.

It Didn't Last, But It Was Something

It's raining outside and I'm in the mood for some melancholic things. Then I suddenly remember this one particular song from David Gray. Love it so much. Enjoy everyone!

Infatuation

"When you develope an infatuation for someone, you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn't need to be a good reason. Taking photographs of the night sky for example. Now in the long run, that's just the kind of dumb, irritating habit that would cause you to split up. But in the haze of infatuation, it's just what you've been searching for all these years." ~ Richard (The Beach, 2000)

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“Infatuation love is equivalent to being head over heels over the person for no apparent reasons. True love is knowing the person inside out and still loving him as much as you do the first time you set eyes on him.” 

~ Joel Guo

The Missing Boy

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So, my boyfriend was missing in action for a whole week couple weeks ago. He didn't answer my calls or even reply my texts. I was angry before, but then I went into panic mode. My pals fed me up with some whimsical thoughts (maybe he's got amnesia from an accident or maybe he's got brainwashed by a cult and forgot all about his past life).

Last time we chat, everyting's okay so I have no clue what's gotten into him. At first I thought he's already fallen asleep that he didn't pick up his phone. Day after that, when there's still no words from him, I still waiting patiently. But two days later, when I once again texted him and still got no feedback, I went angry and frustrated.

I just miss him so much and it drives me crazy. When he finally called, I just feel so relieve that I couldn't even tell him how mad I was. I don't know if I'll ever get used with how this relationship works. All I know is just to hang on as long as I can.

Oh, and this is something I can learn from a TV series I watched before. I think it has a correlation with my situation in a way or another.

"...Maybe we are the way we are because of the people we're with. Or maybe we just pick the people we need. However it works, when you find each other, you should never let go...." (Modern Family, episode 22: Good Cop Bad Dog)

If You

If you can't let go, I can't let you in.

Let It Begin

So we've sealed the deal. But the idea of me being your girlfriend never came across my mind before. There are so many things I still need to figure out about this kind of relationship. Where it's gonna take us, it's still a mystery. Let time be the only answer of that.

But lemme assure you this, I have all of good intentions in the world to let it begin. So let it be what it's gonna be. Let's walk down this path together, you and I, side by side.

The Magic Words

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So, it kinda hurts, doesn't it? To be ignored by someone you care about. To be whining while no one's listening. Boy, it sucks to be you now, don't you think? Eat that.

Life's cruel, some say. But I think you already knew that.

Regrets. Spell the magic words, I might forgive you someday.

Shoo, You, Don't Bother Me

Dear you, I've officially deleted you from my life you know. Now shoo, you, don't bother me!

The Pinky Boy

I'd never imagined that a guy in a pink t-shirt and silly sunflower on the chest could be this goddamn HOT! James Franco, you're a hottie! *smooch

I'll get back to you later on to write about his latest movie, '127 Hours.' It's supercool! You're gonna like it.